Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Not saying much says alot

I could sum it up succintly what I've learnt in these few months with one painful reality- Too often, what we need and want to do are on extreme ends of the same continuum.

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Life has been a flurry of activities, life changing events and several significant milestones (some ten steps forward, some eleven steps backward).

I am now a fellow slave of the working force. To the people who wake up on a rainy morning wishing you didn't have to be at work like in an hour. To the people who experience anxiety every single day wondering if you missed your bus and if you'd be late for work. To the people who struggle so hard to keep awake at 2.30pm but stick on till 7pm anyway. To the people who wished that their job was as easy as a...erm. (Nothing's easy in life isn't it?) My greatest comfort to you is that, you have to live with it till retirement. No, kidding. You are not alone. (Such a sense of solidarity. Haha)

I am hired as a Child Protection Officer at MCYS. Most people don't know what MCYS stands for till you go "Vivian Bala...". Yup. It used to be one of my superfluous dreams. Surreal as it seems, it has become my reality. Still feels strange crossing this milestone sometimes. I feel much excitement on most days. But not denying the incredible fear I wake up to everyday wondering if I am going to make it, or if anything I do would make a difference anyway. But I guess whether or not it does, at least I can say I tried and gave it my all.